Like everyone else I know, 2020 has shaped my life in ways I wouldn’t have dared to imagine a mere six months ago.
I went from having a thriving coaching practice to zero clients almost overnight because of the COVID pandemic and it took my confidence to its knees. I spent months asking myself how I was going to coach others through this, when I couldn’t see the way through it myself. It crippled my ability to communicate, leaving me speechless, in a time when it seems like everyone is defending their various beliefs at the top of their lungs. There has been so much NOISE in the marketplace, I didn’t feel my voice had value. I was in shock and trying to process all of the information coming at me, paralyzed about how to move my career forward.
So I started sewing face masks. And then an apron, pajama pants, then a whole set of pajamas. Then I had to take a break from social media for my mental health, entirely, so I built a fully lined dress and then a fully lined bathing suit from scratch, after that. Then my husband and I pcs’d from NJ to FL and spent weeks in quarantine working on home projects and finally exploring the area with our two dogs, Harley and Scout, when we got out of it.
I have meditated more on anxiety in the last six months than I have in my whole life. I’ve learned how to use a sewing machine, a serger, a table saw, a drill, and how to dry brine a steak for the perfect crust and sear. I have built more things with my own two hands in the last six months than I ever have before. Crippled with how to coach from a failed coaching practice, I turned to anything but coaching to productively fill my days.
This started out as trauma for me. It’s taken me months to be able to identify, acknowledge, and process it. And it felt like failure for the longest time because I didn’t know how to find a way through it myself, much less confidently lead others through it.
And while I am not licensed to talk about trauma and how to heal it, as a business coach….I know all kinds of stuff about failure. As a matter of fact, I started a podcast about it, because it’s something I believe we should talk more about. If you’ve felt like 2020 kicked you in the teeth and you feel like a failure, I want to hear about it.
There’s a way to fail forward and figure it all out and we can talk about that for days.